Certainty

Ok I admit it. I am the type of person who can't just be told something once and believe without actual proof. Like my friend has said about me, "Alana, you are the girl who has to take 6 pregnancy tests to believe it". Which is true. Which I did. All 5 pregnancies.

So would believing that a little girl was inside my belly really ring true to me if someone just told me? I needed a little more certainty. A little more reassurance.

So many people have come up to me asking boy or girl, and when told girl, have proceeded to get into a story how this person was 'supposed' to have one gender and then had the opposite. Then my father-in-law saw all the pink blankets I was sewing and made an innocent joke- "pink! What if they are wrong!".

Me being the worrywart, got me worried and thinking, "what if they ARE wrong?". As if anxiety isn't at a high in pregnancy already- now I have to worry about this? Alana, stop over thinking it. A reputable radiologist, who told you that he has never been wrong, said he would be the most shocked guy if we had a boy. You think that would be enough. But it wasn't.

So last night, Kelly and I headed to the city for a little confirmation. He thinks I'm silly. He doesn't understand my anxiety. We got a gender determination ultrasound done from a lady who gives 100% confirmations.

And what were the results????

A GIRL. Which we knew. But know we KNOW. And now I can really buy :)

The desire for a girl was hiding in me probably out of protection of never really receiving it. Now that I know she's in there; I feel like I can take a deep breath. And enjoy her.

Totally worth the $125.00.

This is all the stuff I have gotten for my baby girl PRIOR to my 2nd confirmation. I've been holding back a little. Her nursery items are just about complete, and now clothes shopping can begin! As I told my husband when we found out she's a girl, "honey, this could get expensive" :)